chicken pot pies
I have just spent the last hour making a full-on chicken pot pie. Why? Because I foolishly decided to teach a pastry class in two days, and because I think, my picture was in the paper last month in an article about cooking classes, all my classes have sold. Great. And not great, because it is the end of the term and the next night I have a charity dinner for 20.
However, despite it being the end of May, Oregon has decided to ignore the warm Pacific currents and it has been raining torrents. I was at a wine tasting yesterday outside besides a choppy lake trying to enjoy the tastings. The lake was supposed to be sparkling and our conversation likewise, but we sipped and tried our best.
So, today, I am reviewing the recipe and trying it out before cooking for a crowd. I have a small small kitchen, and stack things upon all available surfaces. I pre poached the chicken as the wind came up outside. I cut the lovely spring veg, small carrots, baby green beans, grass like asparagus into diagonal same length pieces as the rain began. And, as the smoke alarm went off AGAIN I roasted the red pepper for lovely geramium colored dice. I mumble to myself, imagine teaching it to a group. I imagine the kitchen at the store and what pans I need. I sip some wine from yesterday.
After I assembled the veg and held them as I made the bechamel, I chilled the dough. It sat in my fridge patiently chilling like the weather outside. The phone rang and I took a break...and another sip of wine.
My brother...great news, nice visit, and a chat as I stood looking outside at the retreating rain and mist, considering if I remembered how to open the damper and make a fire.
Back to the chicken pot pie.
I rolled out the dough on my thirty year old tupperware pastry sheet with concentric circles for pie sizes printed on it. I have dragged this beat up tool around for all these years, and I think I need a new one. But it, like so many of my kitchen things has memories no one knows and ever will, but while I have it they live on each time I put my rolling pin to the dough. This is the sheet my daughter made her first tarte tatin. It is the one I cooled cookies on for years.
Why chicken pot pie? This sure was not any kind of chicken pot pie I knew or remembered and despite their paltry filling today I still liked what I remembered of them! Hence the importance of memory over substance because they are still awful now. When the three of us, my two brothers and I were younger, pot pies indicated: Mom And Dad Are Going Out. If not pot pies, then fish sticks also meant the baby sitter was coming over.
We loved pot pies, little saucers with a crust and the glint of crimped aluminum around the outside. I liked the bouncy over-done carrots, the few peas and some cubes of chicken, and the copius gravy. There was a satisfying aroma when we broke the top with our forks. The box promised a luscious picture, and to a six year old, it delivered.
However, in my first marriage, I tried to replicate the pies, and even bought the little pie pans to make my own. I tried, and failed at the bechamel, and so pumped it up with lots of Worscheshire sauce in the congealed gravy. I had made eight of them, happily regressing in the kitchen. Not successful, but not wanting to throw them away, I ate them all week for lunch.
I left those same pans behind last year in my last pantry. Today, I actually borrowed a large porcelain pie pan from my second husband, in fact it was a wedding present to us. I brought it home and now it sits in the oven, a lovely crust piled over a delectable mix with just the right amount of bechamel over perfect vegetables and poached chicken. Or so I hope.
No babysitters, no Mom's night out, the daughter is in college and the dog kids are at Dad's. I hope it tastes good; I have called several people to share it with, but no one is home this soggy, soggy Memorial weekend. The rain has now stopped and as it grows darker I see some sunlight in the city below.
In a way, this is my memorial to all the baby sitters, our nights while Mom and Dad were out being grown ups, and to my two marriages. I have promised to share a piece with the last husband, who knows when I may be driven to make a pie again? Oh yeah, there IS still the class in two days.
Tomorrow, I practice the pastry for and make an apple pie. To be continued.